So today I did something that I haven’t done in a while.
I’ve been serving God to some serious extent for about 3 or 4 years.
And for the first time today, I asked God and believed Him for a miracle for myself.
For some time now I’ve operated under a particular attitude and belief structure. I don’t feel that this particular belief structure and attitude are inaccurate per se. I know that God can do miracles. That He can bring healing to the body, the heart, the mind. I know that any and everything is possible for God. I also know that not everyone is healed. I realize that there is sovereign and divine plan behind a good deal of what goes on in this life. It annoys me to hear it preached that faith is the only contingent ingredient in healing and miracles. I know of people who doubted that God has done miracles for. I know of people who were faithful down to their core who didn’t see the miracle they wanted.
There is divine purpose for miracles and healing that goes beyond just our personal deliverance from suffering. Think of the one man, ONE MAN, at the pool who Jesus healed. Out of maybe hundreds of people who were probably there and in need, Jesus healed one. There were other times where crowds of people came to see Jesus and He healed them all. Our miracles and healing that we see today is testament to God and who He is. Sometimes we need to be shaken up a little bit. Sometimes God needs to show His mighty hand to us or others through us.
Now, because I know that not every healing and every miracle we want gets sent our way, I’ve kind of taken a back seat to praying and believing God for real miracles. It’s kind of like I know with my head that He can if He wills, but I don’t bother to ask because I feel like He’s going to do whatever He wants to anyways.
I’ve been having knee problems that have been becoming more and more severe over the past couple of years. There have been days where because of my activities and the goings on of the day before, I haven’t been able to stand or walk without pain. I have yet to ask God to do something about this….. until today. Knowing God can do it is one thing, believing that enough to get before Him and just ask Him for it is something quite different.
Philipians 3:10 ” That I may know Him in the power of His resurrection and in the fellowship of His sufferings…”
I feel like a lot of us do one of two things. We believe in nothing short of miraculous healing for every person. We ‘know Him’ only in the power of the resurrection, in claiming power and victory and healing. Then there are those of us who stay trapped in suffering. We just assume that life maybe isn’t worth living. “Jesus, take me home,” type of mentality. We assume that suffering for all is just normal and not worth bothering our Father over.
There is real suffering that occurs all over the world, all day, every day. A suffering that I think is hard for Americans to understand. Our very idea of the ‘American Dream’ is built on the idea that with hard work and determination we can have whatever we want. We’ve somehow mixed that into our theology so much so that we have been taught that whenever we’re not healed it’s because we didn’t believe hard enough; we didn’t have enough faith.
There also is a God. A God stronger than the grave. Stronger than death, pain, sickness, heartache, loneliness, insecurity, poverty, economics, politics, and yes, even the good old U.S. of A. A God who wants us to come to Him believing in His compassion and His mercy and the power of His resurrection.
We identify and fellowship with Christ in suffering. We are refined, we are tested, we are used according to the sovereign plan of God. We, likewise, have access to His already-victorious power over any and every thing. There is a day coming, an age in which sickness, death, fear, anguish, these things will be no more. For now, we wait for the plan of the all-knowing, all-powerful, and immutable God to unfold.
If you have believed God for a miracle, and did not see it, know that God loves you as His precious child and that we are called according to His purposes. That there is a God who is in control and who knows what’s best. I you are suffering a haven’t stopped to ask God what He can do for you, know that He is already victorious. Know that He is compassionate and loving and that you can and should come to Him with your requests and prayers, seeking, first and foremost, His will.
I prayed today and asked God to heal my knee. I don’t know if I will or will not continue to have problems with my knee. But I know that God is good and that God loves me and is in control regardless of what little perspective I have on my life.