Today’s post is from Annie, a member of odc. Thanks for sharing, Annie!
Many days work, is well, work. I despise getting up in the morning, and even more than that I really hate leaving my girl at daycare instead of being able to savor each and every moment. Those moments, when I am leaving and she is clinging to my legs, it is hard to just tear her off, hand her to her teacher and go to work. But it is what I have to do. It isn’t something that I love, I didn’t choose a career over being a mom, it is a necessity for me to help provide for our little family. Perhaps one day it will be different, but that is one day, not today.
Anyway I say all that because ever since our sweet addition to our family, I have seen this career more often than not just a necessary evil. A way to pay the mortgage. And yet today I was reminded of the awesome privilege and responsibility God has given to me to be able to have the knowledge and skill set that I do.
I never ever ever wanted to be a RN. But God directed my steps. Each and every one of them. And I am thankful. Yes, I am going back to school. But I am continuing to pursue a career in healthcare, because in the end I want to make a difference. My career allows me to do that. One of my all time favorite movie quotes is from Pearl Harbor. Ben Affleck is getting ready to enlist to fight for Europe and his commanding officer (Alec Baldwin) asks him basically “Do you want to die?” and Ben’s character replies “No, I just want to matter”.
God knows that about me, that I could never have been happy in any type of career that I didn’t find purpose. So yes, some days I am punching a time clock, but at the end of the day, I can look back and see how I was able to affect the lives of my patients and their families. I am thankful for those God directed steps, I made a lot of plans, but God knew what he was doing! It makes those moments of dropping VG off bearable, not enjoyable, and I would trade one for the other in a moment’s notice, but it does lighten that load.
“You can make many plans, but the Lord’s purpose will prevail.” Proverbs 19:21